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I never deserve to truly be happy due to the strong sense of regret I have with every single day that passes that I should’ve been something else, that I could’ve been more, that I could’ve been happier. So many other choices that I took that I shouldn’t, or didn’t that I should have. I’m scared that my life is going to just be one regret piled on top of another, I’ve already wasted adolescence because of it, so what stopping it from becoming every other part of my future? It’s a vicious cycle or regretting something, then worrying about how my life could be better, then looking back at the opportunities not taken whilst worrying. I don’t want to think like this, I should be proud of myself. I am anything but proud, I wish I could start life all over again, everything would be so much better